I have loved putting together outfits since as long as I can remember. Even in Kindergarten I longed to be in control of my wardrobe. I still remember some of the outfits my mom used to make me wear – the good, the bad, and the ugly. We just don’t share the same taste in all facets of fashion.
In High School I spent my spares in the library mulling over any fashion magazine I could find. Drinking in the style. I would then sketch out outfits in my sketchbook, wether I had the item in my closet or not, if I had a cool outfit idea I had to sketch it out. I was overjoyed when we learned a little bit of pattern making in 9th grade Home Ec. I was tickled pink to make my first pair of pants – a forest green pair of wide-leg track pants with an elastic waist (it was the late 90’s and I was having a “wide-leg” phase). I learned to crochet too, creating scarves and accessories for myself. I haven’t sewn any wear-ables in ages but I continue to crochet from time to time.
In College I took Art & Design as well as Makeup Artistry courses. Though I enjoyed these programs and I was and am able to apply much of what I have learned to fashion it wasn’t my passion. I had originally wanted to attend Ryerson University in Toronto for Fashion Design. By the time it was time for me to go to College I could not fathom moving out as my anxiety had begun to take hold. I don’t really regret it as I know myself and myself just couldn’t do it. Perhaps I should have made myself try anyways but whatever, it is what it is. I have found something that both brings me the joy and feeling of passion I have been searching for AS WELL AS helping me to keep my mind busy and off of the million and one anxious thoughts that swirl in my brain.
OUTFIT THERAPY.
When I am picking out outfits, planning videos, filming, and editing I feel good. I can get lost in it and the hours fly by. I feel content. It makes me feel good about myself. I don’t worry or overthink anything, I just do what my creative self feels like and it is fantastic. I make videos out of the pure enjoyment of filming and editing and I don’t do it for anyone else but myself. Yes, I share them to YouTube but inevitably I am doing them for me. If you happen to watch and like them then that is an added BONUS :D.
I feel proud of myself when I see what I have created. And I love knowing that one day, when I am not here, my videos will be, or that in 10, 20, 30+ years I can look back at myself “in living colour” and remember that fragment of time. A fragment of time where I am just lost in the moment of doing what I love. I am not sad, depressed, anxious, or angry. I am happy, content, and ambitious.
I plan to continue filming and blogging because it makes me feel like the person I want to be. For those who read, watch, follow, and subscribe I thank you SO MUCH for sharing an interest in me and my journey. I appreciate your support more then you will ever know.
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I don’t really know why I continue to be drawn to the YouTube community. Every time I try to stop or I think I am absolutely, 110% done with it I end up picking up my camera again. Every time I pick up that camera from the moment I turn it on I am engaged and focused on something that I love.
I love filming. I love editing. I love learning about filming and editing. I love learning new things. I love music and being able to put music in my videos. It is fun and it brings back a feeling I had forgot I could have.
iDREAMinViNTAGE 