i, Carla live with mental illness.
At this current date and time I am working through Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. I get nervous easily, am prone to panic attacks at any given moment in time, I don’t like to go out a lot, sometimes I don’t get dressed for days… the list goes on and on.
i, Carla am not my metal illness.
Sometimes I struggle to realize this but it is true. Mental illness is a part of me but it is not who I am. I have goals and dreams and though it is a struggle I am trying to work towards them.
i, Carla will succeed.
I want to be successful and happy in my own mind, body and life. I don’t want to worry what other people think because those are other people. I am me, not them.
i, Carla understand.
I understand the struggles and limitations mental illness can present in one’s life. The frustration that daily tasks can present. The outright loathing of one’s self for not being able to do what “everyone else” does. I understand because I know what it’s like.
i, Carla will try.
I will genuinely TRY to keep up with blog posts, therapy days and whatever happens in between. I will try to post “Therapy Vlogs” on my Youtube Channel on a regular basis. I will not let myself be my own worst enemy.
i, Carla am in transition.
Currently in therapy and working on myself I am in the “transition” phase. As I am transitioning and transforming so are things around me. I am currently working on splitting my Youtube channel in 2 aka having 2 channels. This is so (theoretically) one can be for vlogs and daily life posts (iCarla) and the other for fashion and beauty (iDREAMinVINTAGE). I am currently working on changing and tweaking things online and offline. I don’t know what I am doing or where I will end up but I will try.
I want to help and I want to heal. I want to help other people realize they are not alone in their struggle. I also want to heal myself. I feel that in sharing some of my struggle I am not only healing myself but hopefully also helping someone out there to find healing in themselves.